We all have those people in our lives that can make even the gloomiest of days bearable with just a few simple words, last week was not the best of weeks for me and my wonderful cousin was there to help.
She is one of those genuinely inspiring people, and has so much going for her that I don’t know where to begin. She has always been there for me when I needed her and I can’t begin to imagine my life without her.
I wish she could see what a truly amazing person she is. She always tries to keep God first, which is definately not the easiest thing to do. She is going to UGA and enlisted in their ROTC program, which is definately too brave for me. She shows so much love and grace that I’m finally able to understand the lyrics to Chris Tomlin’s song “The way I was made” (i.e. I want to love like I’m not afraid…..I want to be the way that I was made). She is definately a role model to me, which is weird because I am the older one, but none the less I couldn’t have asked for a better friend than the one I have in her.
I’m not sure why I felt that I needed to write this but I did none the less, and perhaps one day she will read this and it will help her to see what a truly amazing, wonderful person she actually is.
It’s been one hectic day after another and although I know I should be barely making it through each day, I’m not, I’m thriving. The past week has truly changed my perspective on things. Things had gotten to a point where I absolutely had no idea how I was going to manage. I felt that no matter how hard i tried I just couldn’t keep up to everything else going on; school, work, and even Drew. But this weekend something truly amazing happened. My outlook on life totally changed. I realized that there were things that I just couldn’t live without (or at least live a life worth living without) and that the things I was making a priority were really just wasting my time, and sanity. I know it’s not going to be an easy road (as a wise person once told me nothing worth having is), but I know that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I’m finally getting my priorities right, and I pray that they continue to stay that way, because those few things in my life that are dependable are the only things that are going to get me through these next few months. It’s times like these when I know I can do all things through Jesus Christ who strengthens me (Phil 4:13)
Life has truly been hectic lately. I can’t wait until the end of the semester!!! It’s only a little bit over a month away, so it shouldn’t be too terribly bad. These past couple weeks have truly allowed me to see things in a different way though.
I have never been the best at handling rejection, I’m even worse about holding grudges. But a couple weeks ago I really tried to forge a relationship, and it just didn’t work. I was so upset and frustrated but I prayed about it and was given not only peace in the situation but the gumption to go at it all again. The second time was also a horrible flop, along with the third.
I’ve reached a point in which I know I am powerless to change the relationship, and if the other person decides they want to have a more amicable relationship with me then I will take them up on it. But there seems to be nothing else I can do right now except pray about it.
My world is finally settling down. I am still getting use to Kennesaw, but I really do enjoy it here. There are so many different people from unique walks of life that I can’t help but to be curious as to their lifestyle and their ways. I also like being closer to good friends; I enjoy talking to them and getting the opportunity to hang out with them more frequently. On a different note, I love the way my life is going right now. Although sometimes I feel as though I’m caught between two stages in life, I don’t feel old enough to be a full-fledged adult, but I don’t feel like a girl anymore. I think it’s just one of those awkward stages everyone must go through. Yet in another topic, since this is Drew and Mandy.com I feel compelled to post a little about our relationship. I absolutely love the way things have been lately. It feels good to know that if I need him, he can be there (it’s not a terribly long drive). He is hoping to graduate August 3rd, and I’m so happy for him. He’s been working so hard and has been so busy with work and school. He’s handling the stress better than anybody else I know, and it makes me that much more proud of him.
I also must say how blessed I am on the family frontier, my family has been really supportive of me lately, and I really appreciate it. I am blessed to have such an amazing boyfriend, family, and friends that care about me so much. I am so lucky to have you all in my life!
you know it’s been too long when Drew’s posted and I haven’t. I’m done with North Georgia, woo hoo! now it’s time for Kennesaw and yet another semester dedicated to nothing but school. Although I will have my own place, and I’ll be trying to get a job! So hopefully it will all go well. I am getting tired and know I should probably post more, but I guess there will be time for that tomorrow.
you know it’s been too long when you forget your password to your own website. much has happened in the big blank spot since my last posting. i’m currently in the middle of finals week, otherwise known as hell on earth. not really sure why i choose this particular time to start posting again, guess i just needed something else to keep me from studying. i’ll be so glad when friday evening rolls around and i can close the book on yet another semester. in other news, i’ll be moving back on campus the first week of january. sixth street east, to be exact. it’s not my first choice of living arrangements, but it’ll do for my last couple semesters. most importantly, yesterday was mandy and my 9th montiversary. hard to believe how time flies, especially when you are enjoying it. seems it’s about time to start planning for the big 1 year.
I’m in my dorm, and while the transition isn’t that easy it’s bound to get better. I’m usually a pretty social person, but not so much here, it’s definately a change of scenery. So many trees!! I’m definately home sick. I’ve always believed in the saying ‘Home is where the heart is’ well my home is in Atlanta then. I don’t like being away from Drew for so long, I know it has to happen but I just wish it were easier. I miss him!! I guess this is just a growing up phase and something that I have to go through in order to get to the next stage of my life. Hopefully it will get easier but until then, it will just be not the most natural thing for me.
not a lot has happened since my last post, so I guess I’ll fill you in on the few eventful moments. I’m really trying to destress, for a few reasons a)stress is bad for your face (a.k.a acne), b)it’s bad for your body (weight gain or loss), c)and your not a happy person, which is NEVER a good thing. I’ve done really well with it too, there are a couple glitches in my plan though, the biggest one is that my parental units aren’t wanting to fill out the parent loan for college. Superman had kryptonite, I have limited financial funds. It aggravates me to no end and it seems like there is nothing I can do to stop it.
I can’t be completely negative though, my life is really great, I just joined our church officially!! I’m working on my relationship with God. I’ve been a total slacker in that department lately. The results I’ve gotten though are really great. It seems that no matter how bad my home situation is God never gives me more than I can handle, and He always provides me a way out. That’s been my life in a nutshell lately.
If there is one thing I’ve learned at all this summer, it’s the importance of being who you are, not acting like somebody else, or changing yourself for another person in any way shape or form, but to remain simply you. Everyone is amazing in their own right.
I know conformity is a part of high school, that was the part I liked the least. But it shouldn’t be an accepted part of life. God made us all original and unique for a reason, if He wanted us all to be the same, He would of created us that way.
Lately things have been so choatic, I thought I was on summer “vacation”, yeah it’s not looking that way at all. Well I do have one good thing going for me, and that is Drew. When I’m with him, all the stress and everything just vanishes. It’s quite amazing, I can go from being a mental wreck when I’m at home, to no worries at all when I’m with him. Could that be what they mean when they say “The power of Love”? In my own experience, love has taken me to a place I never thought I would be, I’m happy, I feel satisfied with just being me, and I am very optimistic towards my future, praying that somehow he’ll be in it with me. Love can move mountains, Love can overcome anything, Love can at the end of the day make you realize the whole purpose for your existence, and realize how amazing it truly is to be in love.
I know I’m young, and that makes me even more glad that I have found love at where I am in life now. I don’t know where I would be without having Drew right there beside me. Love is an amazing thing, and pretty powerful too. That’s pretty much it, my home life is less than desirable, but when I’m not at home sure makes up for it. For those times I am without a doubt the luckiest person alive.